I have an understanding and acceptance that life is meaningless (we make our own meaning), completely random, and I perceive my reality by the influences I was subjected to. I used to find myself holding onto my problems as if I can’t do anything about it or let it bother me to the point where I place myself in stress. I analyzed my thinking to better see the flaws behind it.
A problem I once had was having a feeling of depression and not feeling complete. I felt missing because I felt I needed to build a relationship with someone and I couldn’t see the good around me. I felt myself creating too many expectations that were never fulfilled instead of enjoying the reality around me. I felt the journey of life should lead to something amazing rather than enjoying how amazing life is everyday.
From multiple realizations, I came to a conclusion that If I felt depressed, I will push myself to doing something to get me back on track. I started to think that my hits of depression came from expecting too much or letting myself think that I need something from this reality in order to fill complete. By pushing myself to do something, I allow myself to experience and hopefully remind myself to enjoy what this reality has to offer. So I go and don’t stop until I extinguish any flames of corrupt desire to become at peace with myself.
A problem I once had was having a feeling of depression and not feeling complete. I felt missing because I felt I needed to build a relationship with someone and I couldn’t see the good around me. I felt myself creating too many expectations that were never fulfilled instead of enjoying the reality around me. I felt the journey of life should lead to something amazing rather than enjoying how amazing life is everyday.
From multiple realizations, I came to a conclusion that If I felt depressed, I will push myself to doing something to get me back on track. I started to think that my hits of depression came from expecting too much or letting myself think that I need something from this reality in order to fill complete. By pushing myself to do something, I allow myself to experience and hopefully remind myself to enjoy what this reality has to offer. So I go and don’t stop until I extinguish any flames of corrupt desire to become at peace with myself.